Mahatmama

ever fall in love with someone you shouldn't fall in love with?

4.26.2004

every so often, i feel all too realistic. i sit and take notice of the fact that i am a young white male born in america in this time period in tennessee blah blah blah... of all the places in history to be! it's amazing the knowledge i can attain as a... whatever i am. then i realize that all these divisions are just bricks in the walls we build between each other for no good reason. white/black, male/female, christian/non-christian, american/european, drunk/sober, intelligent/unintelligent, democrat/republican, citizen/criminal... with acknowledgement of each of these, the wall gets higher, and the harder it is to break down without the complete determination of both parties. these divisions serve no function but to distract us from the fact that we are all human, and we are all clueless.

4.22.2004

these days, i'm so happy it hurts. just utterly, painfully happy. some days i sit paralyzed on the couch, not wanting to do anything because i know how much i'll enjoy it. overwhelmed.